Alright, the realization that I’ve been acting like shit this week has finally set in.

Meagan, you’ve seriously been acting like fucking shit.  

Not caring, not wanting to do anything, it’s bad. I have not given up just…fell off the wagon for a fucking week. Shit happens, tomorrow I’m making up for it. I’m getting my ass to the gym and fucking working this shit off. 

It shouldn’t matter that my birth control is a bitch and is causing me all these mood swings and seriously NOT HELPING me lose this weight I have to keep trying. 

Well Wednesday went faster than expected, usually it lasts for 35 hours. This week is actually going by pretty quick. 

what did I do that was productive today? well I went to geology and watched Supernatural, what else is new?

I have been so lazy this week it’s not good. 

Well first, I skipped art which I have never done. I just really, really did not want to go. I really hate that class.

And I haven’t been to the gym or worked out since Friday, which is really not good. I’ve just been watching Supernatural the past few days, I’m already like 6 or 7 episodes into season 6. 

Pens game tonight, see if we can keep this streak going. Actually, counting this night, there are only 3 regular season games left. Le sad. 

Dude, I just want this week to be done. I am so done with this week, with this semester!

But on the plus side, I don’t have to take my math final :D I did an extra credit project which can take the place of the lowest score of an exam, and I got a 97/100 on the project so..YAY no math final for me :D 

Ah Monday is almost over, Pens game tonight. 

So I had a geology exam and I think I did pretty good.

And then I came back here and watched Supernatural the rest of the day. 

Yeah, that’s all I got to say.

109: So on Friday I went to the gym, got breakfast, and spent the rest of the morning packing. Then I went to geology and had about 30 minutes until my mom got here. We went home and about 30 min later left for Maryland. Everyone was there when we got there and we had that awesome pizza and me and my cousins played hide-and-seek. I’m saying this because I had thee best hiding spot and no one could find me for like 20 minutes. It was under this crib and there’s this rolling storage thing that went under it. I pushed myself to the back, pulled the storage thing in front of me, and waited. And waited. And waited. It was awesome.

110: So me, my mom, sister, aunt, and cousin went shopping. I got Will Grayson by John Green WHICH I FORGOT AT MY HOUSE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD and a new case for my iPhone. I had a bad experience shopping for clothes but I’m going to forget about it and just get back on the horse. After that we went to my cousin’s tee ball game which was adorable and later we had dinner. It was a pretty hilarious night to be honest.

111: now today, we just spent the morning sitting around and planning (well I was planning) a trip to the Smithsonian we may take the first weekend in May. The plan was to go to my aunts Friday night (since they live near D.C. we’d obviously just stay there) then Saturday and Sunday go to D.C., and come home Monday. It’s the best plan but the only problem my mom said was about our dog Cody, but my dad said that the kennels Cody usually goes to should have room this early yet. The possibility of it happening is pretty big. 

But now I’m here at school and I have my third geology exam tomorrow. I maybe screwed. I couldn’t really study this weekend. Gonna try to do that the rest of the night. 

I don’t know how I’m going to stand the next 4 weeks. I have to, but I don’t want to. I don’t have a lot to do, but I just want it to be fucking over. I really really do. 

Yeah okay, that’s all I got.

Today was a really good day.

First, it was 80 something degrees out. It was really hot but I loved it! Probably since I have reand tank tops here now. I really liked my outfit today and my hair looked good…don’t know where this is coming from. Maybe I’m starting to gain some more confidence. 

Had a math exam, got done in 30 minutes. Probably could have gotten done sooner but I like to recheck my answers.

Art got canceled! 

Had lab which took FOREVER since my partner was very confused and I was sort of confused and my teacher kept going to everyone BUT us. We were the last ones there but I actually like my geology teacher so it wasn’t so bad. 

I had a sandwich today…oh well. It was half a sandwich actually and wedding soup. It was actually the only thing I ate today until a bowel of carrots that I’m having now. That was around 11…I worked out in between…yeah my stomach was starving. Had to really lay low on the food intake since tomorrow is pizza day and I might eat a whole fucking pizza. Well, it’s a big pizza we’re getting, but I don’t care. I only get this pizza when I got to my aunt’s and I didn’t even have it the last time! I think…it was October…maybe…but I don’t get it often. Then Saturday I don’t even know what’s going on Saturday but we’re going to the outlets! I might not buy anything but there’s so many stores and it’s outside and it’s supposed to be nice out in Maryland. 

Oh since I’m not taking my computer I won’t be able to do one of these until Sunday. I might be able to on my phone but that’s just a pain in the ass. 

I’ve just been in a good mood! It makes me write more! 

OMG I am so excited for tomorrow morning cause I’m gonna get up, go to the gym, AND GET AN OMELETTE afterwards! There’s this Bistro connected to the gym and they sell healthy stuff to eat (I’d eat there every day if I could) but they don’t use the meal plan from my school’s card but any ways, they sell omelettes in the morning and I am CRAVING one right now. I am looking forward to breakfast!

Okay I’m done for today!