Today was pretty productive.
I woke up and started cleaning. I made myself a huge ass strawberry smoothie then had a really good workout.
HOWEVER my dad broke my car! He was going to drive and it just didn’t start. Yeah it won’t start. My freaking car! I don’t know what is going to happen.
Today went by way too quick, and of course work never goes by this fast.
Basically I had a lovely dream about my crush last summer…I wonder if I said his name on here…I’m gonna look for these posts last summer and what I said about him. Yeah, so I spent the morning in one of those post dream moods where I was just pretty blah.
I was also up at 4 am CAUSE I THOUGHT I LEFT THE FUCKING OVEN ON. I was like “they’re gonna call and fire me for leaving it on” or “I’m getting demoted because I did something wrong” thanks work, for causing me to have even worse anxiety problems.
Thankfully I turned things around when I did some pilates videos: an example being the 100 burpee challenge. Oh yeah, that felt good. I feel good. Ah exercise.
I don’t have my car this week since my dad hit a deer this past weekend and my parents one car needs to be fixed, so I’ll be doing a lot of nothing until Saturday.
And I am perfectly okay with that.
Ah yeah, no work until Saturday.
I had to close which I think I did pretty good at, got done in 45 min and probably would have gotten done sooner.
Its just my anxiety keeps making me think I forgot something but I know I didn’t. I did fine. It’s all good.
Also been 5 months since I last self harmed :]